No, I'm not travelling anywhere. Albeit the title. People seemingly have gotten into the habit of presuming that I might jump on a plane (any day at any given time) and go off to disappear into one of my crazy adventures (probably to a big city as I'm not really a nature girl). Yet, there are no (current) master plans of mine taking place in the background, I swear.
And for those thinking that my adventures are truly that wild, let me tell you that I have a family member who often visits the Falkland Islands or... you know... Antarctica. Now, that is cool.
I got off track again. Let me clarify things.
I have this great happiness in my heart - and was planning to come here and share pictures of gifts I've been getting (as a huge pre-Christmassy wave of love received from those I'm not celebrating Christmas with (physically speaking) - but who nevertheless understand me so very, very deeply). I'm writing this while also willing to admit something we all know but might shy away from saying out loud; receiving love and attention doesn't necessarily equal being seen. (For who we are). Or being understood. (To our depths). But then there are those, too, whose gifts are deeply connected not only to our core but also to our current, contemporary themes. (Helping you out with a wooden house and a healing garden when hitting rock bottom, Portuguese roosters arriving via post, succulent prints of underground creators of Budapest - equally connected to one's writing and home - or Alice notebooks, because well, duh. Aliiiiiceeeeee. And these are randomly grabbed examples, and part of my not-at-all complete list of my 'ongoings'.)
Or that Totally Unofficial Adventure Time Tarot deck, because...DUH. (This time in capitals.)
So when this happens in my life - and it does happen - I'm. So. Very. Beyond. RICH. So very much.
I wanted to write about all this - and in detail. But then, I checked myself. There are those social media celebrities, churning out long video sequences on what they've gotten-received-bought from whom, luxurious and fancy piles of objects. The truth is, my gifts, though financially speaking also faaar more valuable than what I'd deserve to receive, shouldn't be shown off. It would be so very insensitive. And although sharing joy is just as important as keeping in mind others' perspectives, balance is crucial. So, have I found the right balance? I'm not sure. But I'm trying.
Almost everyone's reality is out of reach for some, and I find this truth perplexing. What confuses me is not what I cannot dream of, but what I have, and some may only desire.
So what else can I add? Besides feeling so very grateful?
Oh, there is something. I got unstuck with my writing. I was actually planning (and already writing) a post on having gotten stuck when I accidentally got unstuck, and then I was like, 'Oh great.' And here, I need to add this emoji. The eye-rolling one. 🙄
The truth is, not venturing (physically) does not equal not going anywhere. In fact, one of my favourite types of adventure involves my sheep-shaped hot water bottle, my crazy, overworking imagination, A BOOK, and my bed.
Okay. To be fair, I can now also write about how to get unstuck. But what I wanted to say is, that being seen, but truly seen - by some - is so very-very invaluable in our lives. And quite frankly, it's just so hard to guess (right) which ones of our relationships will involve that depth and which won't. I think all we can do is try to invest quality in humans and hope it will be reciprocated. (And through our mistakes, all kinds of heartbreaks might enter the chat, romantic and non-romantic ones equally.) But something I've learned is that conscious and consistent effort (not just 'happenings' on the premise of mere lack) are our biggest weapon. And then some people will get you to your core.
I'm 'gotten' more than what I deserve. And my little universe, therefore, is anything but lonely.
And I'm
so
so
so
incredibly
incredibly
incredibly
grateful.
(And a clumsy card of mine arrived today - to a birthday girlie. It almost missed the big day (even though having been shipped in time!), but in the end, it didn't. It arrived just on the right day (something that had never happened before with any of my posts). She was sooo happy. And I'm so happy that she was so happy...)
(And meantime, another card arrived too at another friend!)
Thank you for reading! Hugs from the Fearless Frock.:)))
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